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well, npap have once again come to an end.
The 1st time i went as a supporting contigent during my sec2:" OMG, we trained for that long & we stand there for a pathetic 1 hr or so. It was sooo tiring! heh, however, Im proud of myself & us. We did a great job back then & little of us faint during the actual parade. Goodies bags food are nice too lol "
The 2nd time i went as an audience during my sec3:" Oohs, the parade was okay however, too much goh makes the parade looks small. & OMG! so many people fainted?! but well,tsktsk, what to do. heh the food in the harmony hall was uber nice. lol "
The 3rd time i went this year as the supporters from each school:"gosh the weather was freaking hot. oohs, we waited darn long! parade was same like last year, but too many fainted, including a CC. -_- Irritating cadets sitting behind me resulting in me getting piss off & started to complain. hah. Comment till so negative fr what, if u cn do a better job go dwn thn. "

:D my 4 years in npcc, 3 years went fr npap, 2 years as a cadet, 1 last year to think back. well spent yea?

Anyway just some random thoughts;
People do actually say: " Outer appearance dont matter, inner appearance is what that matters." but in contrast, if one actually survey it carefully, for those who say those words, in fact their the other half is always in contradicting. So how true is human's words? Are humans to be trusted? Ain't our nature is selfish yet we are just trying to act kind. In other words, we are the most selfish beings on earth & our kind is actually a wolf in a sheep's skin. Dont you think so? Humans are coming up with conservation of environment & animals project/laws in the earth and act as though we are trying to be kind to them, even though the ones who deprived them of existing in this world was us in the first place. Hence, humans are selfish & untrustworthy beings dont you agree?.

im just the same, im the another selfish beings on earth. all these whiles, all those nonsense, are all my excuses and not reasons. im just trying to convince them & me with my excuses yet not reasons. Come to think of it, excuses of mine're just bullshit. i have been fooled by my ownself.- rest of it shift to other web -

End up, it hurts more than its supposed to be. End up, im just deceiving myself. End up its a Deja vu.