Imagine for the first time, you are going to step out of the school into the society, a lot of things are going to change. You couldn't be like a kid, running around chasing people just because they piss you off. You wouldn't hear dumb foolishly asked questions and people will then say just joking only lah. You wouldn't wear that piece of uniform again. You couldn't shout out neither could you just scream at people anymore. You wouln't be carrying a big bulky bag with a dozen of books of different subjects. You couldn't laugh around and make a fool out of yourselves in the public anymore. There is alot more to state but this post will be endless to do that.
It is just so contradicting. Here we are still in school, still complaining about everything that is bad about this school and complaining about how much we want to leave, how much joy there could be to just leave this dumb school. But then, just by leaving CABIN[my 2nd CCA] today, i realise something struck me so much. It kinda hurts, i kinda wanna cry, i kinda wanna hug them all, i kinda just oh, stay in this school. \: mhm. I really feel like breaking apart from my emotions and then, live on without feeling sad. They came in my life then now they went out of my life. its just feels so annoying, totally. we look at how people changes and without knowing, we changed too. Flipping through the photos back and back, wondering, was that even me? Am i that kind of a person? Why did i change so much?
Tomorrow is whitleynpcc pop. Im not getting high over this because i lost my last camp with them, i lost my night pop concert with them, i lost my campfire night with them, i lost the atmosphere of POP and most of all, disappointingly, i lost my passion. I dont even know what face should i be putting on tmr, im like happy to have my pop but yet, hais. Im not contented with what i have ]:
Oh well, tmr is going to be so busy.
-Geo test, Emaths test, Vocab test
-Geo hwk undone, Chem hwk undone, Emaths hwk undone
-im getting my phone from service back
-whitleynpcc POP.
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