Dear Friend.

i do too, wish to smile from the bottom of my heart like i did in this pic.

Dear friend,
I'm glad you dissuade me, im glad that you were there for me all this while. Yes having that feeling taken again from me hurt real bad, but because of you and others, i gotten over it quickly. Im really glad to have you around.

You don't deserve what you name yourself as, for the one undeserving of your attention and kindness was me. My world turn upside-down, my hopes went low, i nearly felt sorry for myself yet you bring back my hope, my strength and thanks to your encouragement, im back as myself.

I just took you for granted. Instead of taking the blame on myself, i took my anger out on you. Thinking that the hope, the strength and the encouragement you gave was all just crap that make my current situation even worse.

Im not feeling alright. Not because of you, but because of my parents too. They are my life, my dad and mom, yet i disappoint them greatly this time. Yes as what my mum say: having a poly to study in is good enough but i know that this isn't what i should be giving them. That's why im stress. My heart never felt as heavy before. Perhaps i just begin to think more about life. Even if i flunk my exams in the past, i don't care. However this time, there is something tingling to me. I know they lost most hopes on me.

Im not sorry for myself, fear not. Im not that pathetic yet. I am frickle-minded, don't forget. That's why i changes my decision as quick as i changes clothes. This is not your fault but just mine. This is never going to be the final journey you sending me off, no way. Come on, we promised. until the age of 28, i'll be waiting for your invitation to your marriage. hah.

The time for me to not forgive you wouldn't be anytime soon. No, we didn't change our status. Im still peko.

You should plainly just ignore me sometimes so that i could learn my lesson and not take people for granted