Distinction presentation had ended. I think i didn't do pretty well, so there goes my distinction into thin air. |: This presentation is no doubt a great experience for me. Standing at the top, fighting with the top, i realised: I'm not that strong afterall. I'm weak when comparing to them. I miss those days in secondary school, just a small space, a small room with only 40 of us. Everything was much much more simpler. :| It's over, stop thinking about it. Work hard for others subjects. Yeah, i try my best. hais -sighs-
"I cry at some little shit and think about what people say a lot. I have to plan how to behave, what to do, in order not to make a fool out of myself. I get extremely emotional at night and I’m a sucker like that. I waver when it comes to voicing out my opinions. I can’t be alone. I feel like shit because of everything. I hate how I am now. It’s really tiring to be on my guard all the time and pretending to be okay. I always say I’m okay, but it’s not okay! It’s not! I know it’s so stupid to be saying all these but whatever."
"I cry at some little shit and think about what people say a lot. I have to plan how to behave, what to do, in order not to make a fool out of myself. I get extremely emotional at night and I’m a sucker like that. I waver when it comes to voicing out my opinions. I can’t be alone. I feel like shit because of everything. I hate how I am now. It’s really tiring to be on my guard all the time and pretending to be okay. I always say I’m okay, but it’s not okay! It’s not! I know it’s so stupid to be saying all these but whatever."
(source: "http://jgny.tumblr.com/post/3200499251 ")
If i had another chance to live again, i will make sure my life would not be like this. ):
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