All that I need is this.

Crash AMK with Awesomest peeps ♥  That's really the motivation I need to carry on with life at poly. There are times when I feel like I cannot take it anymore & really really, I can't stand being there, right there in NYP. I can't face them anymore, I can't make myself like them anymore. I'm getting tired of all those shits that is happening. Because I know, things will never be like this if I was with this people of my secondary school. It's like with them, I don't fear of anything rather I don't need to fear anything. But as times moves, environment change, a different path we go, we don't & can't afford to meet up everyday. I really hope that this feeling of trust never go away. I don't wish to wake up one day, & realized that hey, we're strangers again.

I'm not blaming for being in nyp. I'm not blaming on life for letting me to be in that class. I'm just tired, really tired. My sixth sense is extremely strong, and most of the time accurate. I know and can feel. And the only reason I can give to you is that I had enough of people lying right in my face. Words sometimes are easily said but hard to do. I was told that I should be more honest if there's anything wrong. I did really tried to be but when I sense that you can't be honest with me, I just defense myself back by not saying because the consequences of saying things all out is just knifes poking to my back or just redundant & ridiculous quarrels.

I'm trying to say is stop talking behind me because it irks me.If you need, just say it in my face.