Emotions, So Hard To Express

I think you didn't know but I've a hard time trusting people. Yet, I'm the kind that shows I'm happy no matter what. The good thing is that I begin to trust, little by little, opening up my inner thoughts to you. I wish for things to be kept simple because you're a friend I don't want to lose. It's hard for me to find a friend like you, someone who trust me and likewise I can trust. The bad thing is I messed things up, badly. I didn't walk away, I'm searching for my place to stand. I know those things affected you pretty bad, but I don't know what's the line to not cross. I really don't. I've friends who did same things or more to me,so it really isn't that much of an issue on my own point of view. But i guess things aren't the same for you.

For everything, I'm sorry. It was a mixed emotion, so messed up that neither I have the idea what I'm feeling and things are really ): to the extend that I lost mood in everything. Sorry.