2012

It's said to be the end of the world. Maybe that's the reason why it started out so badly. 

It's suffocating me & I can no longer feel my breathe. People told me that giving up is not what a leader does but, I'm no longer a leader or so I feel. I'm a pathetic, miserable human. I gave in to temptations, which I totally would have not in the past. Now it is becoming an addiction. I know it is harmful, I understands the concerns of friends & in future, when all the harms kicks in, I probably will curse and swear at my stupidity now.

My resolutions for the year, simple, to become a better person than I am now. 

Physically, Emotionally, Mentality. I want to look in the mirror and see a fat me, no more. I want to not break down at the slightest setback. I want to be stronger than I was. I'm changing, good or bad, I just want to make up for all that I've not done, make up for all I've done. I don't need this event to be successful in how others deem successful to be. I need people to have fun and people to like what they're doing. Perhaps, the starting will be messy, but the process will be a smooth journey.