The law of unintended consequences.

It's like when you're a kid, pure & innocent. Never thought that one day some other random kid could cause a trauma to you up till now. It wasn't anything major, nope don't worry I wasn't hurt physically or so. Which I guess is worst now that I think about it, I wish it was a physical hurt instead of an emotional one because I guess physical hurt all will heal somehow.

It happened so just earlier today, someone out of fun and jokingly said the exact same word out like how the kid back then said. Yeah, it wasn't that someone's fault, I mean after all, none of them knew the trauma I had. But then after that, all I could hear was a small voice inside my head that was telling me I'm wrong. I'm at fault. It was a small voice I heard it before when I was younger, and it didn't exactly became any easier hearing it again. All my life was built on hearing that fewer times, like a box score in my mind, & that average had taken a huge damage. It sucks.

This is the law of unintended consequences. And such consequence brings about just misery. Such an lugubrious wretched.