Wilt

Just lay in bed, on sofa or just laze around not knowing what to do next. It ain't a choice, and it's not like there is nothing to do. It is just the inability to find the power, strength or determination to do anything. You know what? This is really fucking emptiness. As much as I tried to always always filled my life up, I just can't fill up this emptiness.

Just why am I so messed up? Just how can I stop feeling this way.