The only person I can control is me.

"We can only try to change the lane that we are moving on, but never make a turn.
That's how the world work."

The heart is pulls a halt to the lane I was moving on. I couldn't turn back, couldn't advance. Not because of missing the person but dwelling in time to prevent further heartbreaks. For, the last I had, my heart got wrecked. Now, I'm scared. The heart had the lanes changed, the engine going and now, it's moving fast. I haven't get my destination located, I haven't determined my route. I fear for all these unknowns are killing me and I've no time to react to them. I fear for all the inner demons of mine will overwhelm you and destroy what I'd have. I fear so much, so many, it is eating me up. The only person I can control is me, yet I can't even handle myself...